Just the other day I had to ask one of my friends if I could take pictures of him so I could practice drawing male muscle structures. I'm already awkward about that kind of thing and him having NO idea what I was talking about didn't make it easier. I mean, in the end it all worked out, but it still was a very awkward conversation.
The sad part is, that's not even the weirdest thing I've had to ask my friends, I've had to ask one of my friends to look like they were choking me so I could have a reference photo, I've asked to take pictures of knee caps, hands, faces, and asked general weird and personal questions about their bodies. I mean, usually I can use myself as a reference, but 1) I'm not a dude, so I can't really do that for when I'm working on males and 2) It's kinda boring to draw the same body type over and over again. Luckily I have some pretty understanding friends, and some of them actually get really excited when I ask them to "model" for me. I'm definitely blessed that my friends and family are VERY supportive of my art, and of me in general.
One thing that does really concern me is my hand tremors, they're unfortunately a side effect of all of the medications that I'm on and I usually can keep them under control with eating right, but the other night they shook so badly I couldn't hold my phone, much less a pencil, I'm not going to lie, I cried. Art is the only thing I've ever wanted to do, and the only thing I've fallen in love with (besides books). I threw myself into hysterics, how could I be an artist and make art for a living if I can't use my hands? It's definitely something that I'm going to have to manage and try to work past.
But anyways, sorry I haven't been posting, but I still love all of you! and I'm here. And even if you don't think you're an artist, you can draw me a picture of stick people and I will still think it's beautiful.
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