Pins and Needles

They increased my medicine again, and added a new one, to help me concentrate and get through finals. They have their ups and downs, of course there's some shitty side effects. I'm thirsty all the time now, which isn't bad, but holy crap do I drink alot of water now, and the medicine to help me concentrate makes me fall asleep. It's like having clear thoughts for a couple hours, and then you crash. I took some this morning for my math test, and afterwards I got home and took a two hour nap. I have been bruising pretty badly lately, like everything bruises me, I'm not too sure if I should be worried or not, but my legs are bruised from the knees down. Its REALLY attractive.

I also started therapy monday, and I'll see her every two weeks or so, so far it's gone well. Better than the last two thats for sure. I can tell her things that I'm too afraid to write on here (yes, there are things in this world that I'd rather the world wide web not know, hold your gasps). I hope it works out though, I'm hopeful. She thinks in the long run I could possibly be taken off medicine, have less panic attacks, and actually feel normal, which would be wonderful.

I've developed a fear of sleeping alone, I guess it stems from my fear of being alone. I tend to do stupid things when I'm by myself, so I take precautions, I'm hardly ever alone, which makes me feel really bad for Einstein, since he's by himself most the time. I think it's understandable though, I like the company of other people, I like to watch the world live on around me.

On a happier note, East and I went ice skating last week, and I had a really good time, it took me a bit to get the hang of it, but I eventually did pretty well, I did fall pretty badly and bruised my butt. I quit after that. but I did have a good time. Then I got to see my family for Easter, and that was WONDERFUL I love seeing them, I love being able to spend time with them, and show them my life here.

It's time for me to call it a night, my beautiful readers:

"you look like the universe decided it was being tired of being so immense 

so it compressed all of its beauty and complexity and wonder

into a smaller form so it could make everyone around you feel like they 

were a part of the 

stars"

aaaaand for all you brave souls going through finals soon: May the odds be ever in your favor, we've fought the good fight. I'll see you on the other side. The side of summer. 

Straight Thugging it with East, and his manly croissants.